I am now 34 weeks and 2 days pregnant. Ryan was born in 2 weeks from now. Zach was 3. I had doctors appointments today and they both think that this guy will come around the same time. It's so hard to believe that I only have that short amount of time left, but at the same time, it feels like it can't come soon enough. I am tired often and achy and uncomfortable. I can't wait to have Andy join us but I also DO NOT want another NICU experience. So I wait. I have had a few painful contractions a day for the last few days and according to Dr. Neal, it has gotten me to a fingertip dialiation already. Dr. Hux saw that his head was very low into my pelvis already also. So, as much as it seems surreal that all of this is happening already, it also seems that it isn't going quick enough. Part of me feels that I should be cherishing this pregnancy and everything about it because it will be my last. At the same time, I am very anxious to have Andy in my arms and get my body back (or as back as possible when breastfeeding all the time). I know that after he comes, time flies by even faster, and that I am not looking forward to. I am just a big bag of mixed emotions right now. So much to think about and look forwad to and also to cherish. I love feeling when Andy kicks me and when he has the hiccups. I don't like when I feel like I'm waddling because he is sitting in a bad spot, cramps, not being able to see parts of my body, the swelling, not being able to sit comfortably, being so hot and sweaty all the time, charlie horses, feeling short of breath, being tired, not being able to bed over... I can go on.
I am so privledged to be creating this little life though.
((For some reason this thing just deleted a huge whole paragraph I had written on how blessed I am to be having Andy. GRRRR@ technology!!))
Sorry, but I am too tired to retype everything. I still have to get the boys in bed and I also wanted to do some knitting. If I really do only have 2 weeks left then I need to finish that blanket!!
